Today I went to this event my support worker set up with the cast of My Transsexual Summer (well, the female cast, the guys weren’t there). Anyway, I thought I was ready to go out and do things, but it all felt so overwhelming. I ended up crying in my support worker’s office for a few minutes just to let it out.. I had no reason to be upset. I don’t know..
It was frustrating. Oh and I got mispronouned.. it always hurts more in an actual trans environment. The weird thing is I was talking with the woman about my transitioning.. then she “she“‘d me.. I don’t know if she thought I was MtF or what. O_o
Anyway, tomorrow I’m seeing Nicole Scherzinger in an entirely different city, then I’m going to another city next week to see a friend.. I’m hoping I don’t feel overwhelmed again. I don’t want to let it stop me going out, ‘cos my mama was agoraphobic and I don’t wanna get like that. But at the same time.. if I start freaking out tomorrow I have nowhere to go and no one to turn to.. It’s a little daunting.
